Look. This is him when he was two and a half years old. On his tricycle, in our backyard. It was taken with a cheap box camera we got with coupons out of the newspaper. But it's lasted well over the years.

I did not know, when I pressed the shutter, that one day he was going to jump off a bridge. To try to end his life - a life I laboured so long and hard to bring into the world.

But he failed. So now he can get his arse in gear and have another go!